HAPPY BIRTHDAY JMVI.

Happy 16th Birthday Jonathan Michael Viloria Inigo! (=

Today didn't go as I planned. Was supposed to surprise my best friend at his house this morning. But when I woke up, all the cars were gone -__- So there goes my plan. And plus, he had his cousin's party to attend. At that point, I didn't feel like doing anything anymore. So I decided to take a nap. Ended up sleeping for four hours! Didn't have a ride to Sean's party, so I told Jonathan I could make it to his.

Got ready and left my house around 6:45. Got to his house by 7. Adriel was already there. Met his family, then sat on the couch watching Madagascar 2. Shortly after it was time for dinner. Continued watching Madagascar. Ryder finally opened up to me. (= Sat with him, wrote out his name, drew shapes, and taught him a few words. By the end of the night, he learned to say 'iPod' & 'yellow' ;D Yeah, he's officially my favorite kid in the world! After dessert, headed upstairs with the boys to play video games. I didn't know what the hell they were playing, so I sat around and played with Ryder ;P Around 9:30, I decided to leave.

Even though my day didn't go as planned, I still enjoyed it. (=
Sorry Sean for missing your party! I'll make it up to you, I promise 0=]

BABY KHYSTEN DAY OUT.

So today was totally uncalled for. Met up with best friend at Loco Moco. Bought us some breakfast. Walked to school (I'm actually starting to like walking to school). Kickbacked in sensei's room waiting for the bell to ring. Got a text from Ea asking if I'm going beach for baby Khysten. After 5 minutes of hard thinking, I decided to go. Thinking we were coming back for 2nd or during lunch at least, I get to the car and they tell me otherwise -__- So today is officially the first day I cut a whole school day this semester. And must I add, is my LAST. But it was worth it, cause I got to spend most of my day with my favorite nephew. (= Whom by the way is growing up to be very handsome ;D Well duh, look at his parents.

Anyways, back on subject. Stopped by the bank so Kassey could get money. The machine was acting stupid, so we went to the bank in Waipahu. Had to meet up with mommy them at Waipio since they took their car in to the shop. Ate my food along the way. Got to Waipio and it started drizzling -__- OH EW. Talked with mommy about school. Can't wait til she comes back on Monday ;D Stayed at the shop for about 20 minutes til the car was fixed. Then headed to Kapolei to buy food for our picnic at the beach. Got to Costco and it was packed! Well duh, today was the grand opening. So instead, we bought pizza from Little Caesers ;P Got to the beach and the weather absolute perfect. Kinda, sorta? Not really. The sun wasn't always out and it was windy as fuck, making it extremely cold! Fell asleep for 10 minutes or so. Woke up and we all played the impossible quiz on Bryant's iTouch. Around 1, decided to head back to Ewa Beach and eat at Genki. Me and Ea kept laughing at the ebi fry on the belt because there was only one on the plate ;P After Genki, me and Ea bought our usual strawberry melon 2 pump raspberry unsweetened black tea from Starbucks. Thanks Ea for spotting me! ;D

Bryant dropped me back off to school for practice. It was my day to teach. To my surprise, I actually taught four 8-counts. That's way more than my usual nothing ;P Left around 4:45. Dropped off Adriel. Then Raena dropped me off home. Today was a good day indeed. (=

THIS ONES FOR YOU.

August 3rd, 2007 - the day EVERYTHING changed.

I can't do this anymore. I can't keep putting up a front. I can't pretend to be happy around you when I'm not. I can't look at you the same way anymore. I can't be the person you WANT me to be, I just can't. You either accept me for who I am, or walk out now. Because let me tell you, if we can't see eye to eye now, you will always look down at me with embarassment. Like I'm such a bad person because of the way I am. You look at me like I'm a pointless piece of shit in your life. Like I'm NOTHING.

If I've learned anything these past 6 years, it's that you will NEVER change. Not for me, not for your other son I'm FORCED to call my brother, not even for YOURSELF. You know I used to look up to you. But now? I look at you and just laugh at how PATHETIC you are. I mean look at you, you're almost 40 and you act as if you're 21. NEWSFLASH! Your party days are over. So you should quit acting like a teenager and START parenting.

You hate the fact that I'm gay. Well guess what? Nothing's going to change that. And if you love me, you will accept me just as I am. Ever since I came out to you, you gave up all hope in me. Your reaction wasn't totally uncalled for. I know how heartless you are. Why should you change that for me? Because I'm your son? PLEASE. Knowing you, you'd probably disown me if I weren't turning 18 soon. I'm at a point in my life where I want nothing to do with you. I don't even want you at my graduation. You know, the one event that you claim I will never make it to. I used to push myself harder in school to prove to you that I can make it. But with hearing you tell me repeatedly that I won't make it, I finally decided that I don't want you there when I do make it. The only thing I ever wanted from you was to be proud of me. By the end of it all, whether you're proud of me or not, it won't matter. Because by then, my love for you will eventually fade and I will grow to hate you.

Don't blame me for my so called mistakes. You made me the person I am today. You are the exact kind of person that I hate. I don't associate with people like you, so why should I accept you as my mother? You don't even deserve that title. I don't care if people think I'm a bad person for writing this. Because if they knew the things you say to me, the way you treat me, the harsh words that no mother should be even saying to their child, then they wouldn't judge me based on what I'm saying.

I know for a fact you're never going to read this. But a part of me wishes you do. Because even after you hear what I have to say, you're only going to use it against me and look at me as if I'm the pathetic one who has no life. I know one thing for sure, I AM NEVER GOING TO BE LIKE YOU.

LIGHT PAINTING.

Got a random IM from Esther asking what I was doing. Come to find out, her and Sean were going to run some errands before church and she was asking if I wanted to tag along. So of course my answer is yes. They pick me up around 1. Our first stop is Kunia. Stopped by Esther's grandma's house to pick up make-up. Then went to go cash her check. Our next stop was Pearls. Esther had to pick up her last paycheck, so me and Sean stood around in Forever 21 judging girls in line ;P Afterwards, went to MAC so Esther could re-fill her make-up. Some creepy guy was following Sean everywhere he went x] Walked to the other side because Sean didn't want to drive. Crossed the jungle on our way to PacSun ;] Sean bought a jacket. I was craving churros so we went to Cinnabon. Our next stop was Genki. We played the 'who would you marry/shoot/&fuck' game as we ate. Amy gave us dicount. (=

Our next stop was Sean's house so that he could change. Me and Sean teased Esther while she was on the phone with Eric ;P Our final stop was church, duh. Half the time I was lost but I'm sure I'll keep up as I attend mass more often ;D Didn't stay for lifenight. Ended up going out with Esther, Jeff, Jordan, Eric, and Royce. Went to Starbucks to kill time since we had to wait for Jeff. Ended up taking out food from Genki. Then buying Jamba afterwards. Me and Jordan kept throwing jokes at each other all night ;P Decided to ride with Jeff. Stop by my house to get a jacket. Then met up with everyone at Borders. Read a dirty japanese book ;] Around 7:30, we finally headed to the overpass. Did light painting. Yeah, I can't write for shit -__- Left around 8:30.

MARDI GRAS.

Woke up earlier than I was supposed to because boyfriend 'accidentally' called me. So I decided to just get ready for Mardi Gras at OLPH. My morning didn't start off so well and only got worst at the day went on. RJay & Mary Baby picked me up around 8:45. Stopped by 7-11 to put gas. Jonathan needed a ride so we told him we'd pick him up. Ended up waiting 5 minutes outside of his house! Got to OLPH and felt more irritated than ever. But I decided to be the bigger person and talked things out. First group performed around 10:30. Then we had an hour to kill before our group went on. Worked on last minute changes in our formations. It took longer than we expected. Overall we did pretty well for 1 day worth ;]

After the performance, kickbacked with the dance squad and enjoyed the event. As the day went on..@#$%^&*! Yeah, I'd rather not talk about it. None the less, I tried not to think about it. And appreciated the time I spent with the seniors. Ended up getting into a water fight ;D I ended up getting into an accident -__- But I didn't let that ruin my fun. So todays 'you had to be there' moment - Esther was refilling her bottle at the water fountatin, only thing was SHE LEFT THE CAP ON! HAHAHA ;D Even though I was having an off day, I had a good time with good people. I even made new friends. (= Stayed til the end. Got home around 3. Planned on going to Gagada's party, but I didn't have a ride. So I ended up talking to boyfriend for the whole night >;]

JAPANESE COMIC BOOK.

Today was the first in a long time that I didn't wanna get up for school. I pretty much stayed up til 2AM doing my japanese comic book project -__- That's what I get for procrastinating. But in the end, it was all worth it ;] Not to be cocky or anything, but that's the best project I've ever done in my life. AND I did all on my own!

So back to what I was saying before I totally went off subject. Well not really, it leads up to how my day went. So I woke up at 6, the usual. Thank you to my boyfriend for calling me every half hour to wake up and get ready for school. Ended up taking me 2 hours to get out of bed! ;P A part of me didn't want to go to 1st period, but then again..NO WAIT. I pretty much didn't want to go to 1st period. Ended up getting to school right before 2nd period started. Did the usual nothing. Shared the laughs with the usual people about the usual random things. Oh! Remember that one girl I was talking about in my previous blog? Yeah, her crack was totally showing again. So Richard jumped out of his seat and said, "WHERE THE HELL IS THAT CREDIT CARD?!" HAHAHA ;D FYI honey, wear pants that fit you. Quit tryna squeeze into jeans 2 sizes smaller than they should be ;P

Anyways, enough of that. I was actually excited for japanese today. Sensei took a look at my project and said, "Hey. Your project looks exactly like Jonathan's." So I smiled and told her that I did different aim questions than his. And it's not like my project looked exactly like his. Mines was prettier ;D Well duh, I couldn't help him make his project if it was only gonna turn out looking better than mines. That's out of the question. Sadly, I was one of the people chosen to present my project -__- Along with my 2 irritating-but-gotta-love-em best friends in that class, Jay Aye and Mark. (= Since sensei wasn't feeling too well, we had free time for the rest of the period. Went to the counselors to turn in my half day slip to make it official. That totally ruined my day. I officially HATE my 1st period teacher, no questions asked. But on the bright side, I have half day. Well technically 3/4 day, but whatever. I end school at 12ish all 5 days of the week ;D

Spent my free period in yearbook with the girls. Ended up going home early with MB since she had to take her 'baby' to the shop ;P Had one of those life changing conversations. I never realized how quickly the 'real world' is coming up. 60 school days left of senior year ;( On my way to dance practice, there was major traffic! Picked up Meeetcho from Gagada's working place. Then headed back to school. Tried to work on our deadline due tomorrow. Only thing is, the other dance team wasn't there! So kickbacked with the dance team as they worked on their number for this weekends performance. Dropped Jonathan off home. Then stopped by Mickey D's to buy my Hello Kitty watch ;] Dropped off Adriel. Then Meeetcho. Made it home by 6.

Wow, I'm amazed at how much I wrote today. If only all my blogs were this long and interesting. Now wouldn't that be something? ;P

PRESIDENTS DAY.

Woke up earlier than I intended to. Ate breakfast, then showered and got ready for lunch with Malloria Galloria. (= She picked me up around 11:30. Caught up on everything on our way to Pearl Highlands. Watched Confessions of a Shopaholic. Afterwards, went to the mall to pick up my last pay. Didn't wanna spend too much money, so we ended up just eating at the food court. I swear, I hate people. But at least my food was hot and fresh. Today was pretty much a chill day. It was pretty much the best 4 day weekend ever >;]

VALENTINES DAY.

Krystian Scott Alvirez Javier, <3

FRIDAY THE 13TH.

Plans to go to the pool got cancelled.
But on the bright side, best friend slept over. (=

SEXUAL HAIRASSMENT.

I'm currenly in Novanet, waiting for the rain to stop so I can go to the counselor and get half day. (= I swear it's sunny outside! Anyways, the twins picked me up for school today. Got to class 2 minutes late and my teacher totally called me and Ea out on it. Apparently I have 5 tardies, Ea has 6. WHATEVER! 2nd period, studied for my japanese test. Talked with the girls about..SECRET! Chilled in the back with the yearbook editors. Read Sean's piece, it's very touching ;( Almost made me cry, ALMOST. Talked about our personal page and where we're gonna have our photoshoot. Yeah, we have less than 3 weeks to do so.

Took my test for japanese. Surprisingly, I did way better than I thought. (= Talked story for the rest of the period. Told Jay Aye about my dream last night ;P Ended up talking about 'boy' stuff. OH EW, right? Pulled out my dead hair and put in on Mark's back x] He and Ronnie called it 'sexual hairassment'. Which explains the title of this blog. So yeah, looks like the rain stopped. So I'm gonna head to the counselors. I swear, he better be there! Alrighty, til later. (=

I LOVE WEDNESDAYS.

Like every other morning, I struggle to find a ride for school. I know right, my life is so sad. MB picked me up, then we got Esther Claire. Made it to class on time. Psssh, right! More like made it 2 minutes after the bell rang. Got our grades and boy am I dissapointed. I have a B -__- Did make up work for the rest of the period. Even though I'm only missing one assignment ;P I thought it was pointless to go to class, RJay thought otherwise.

2nd period, yearbook keeps getting better and better. I swear, we find the most dumbest things to laugh at! So like, I hate ugly people who think they're so hot shit, when in reality they're the exact people who are straight up ugly. Especially this one particular person who almost everybody in that class talks shit about. Yeah, her crack was showing today. I'd say about an inch or two? Enough to swipe a credit card, so says Richrawrd ;P And it was a good laugh for about 10 minutes? Ate cup of noodles since I was saving my apple jacks for 3rd period.

Lunch was..whatever. Played jepordy in japanese ;] My group won. (= Took my mastery test for novanet. And guess what? I PASSED IT! You know what that means..HALF DAY! After school, caught ride with Kassey home. Jonathan came over. He fixed my computer and we ate cup of noodles since we were starving -__- Around 4, headed back to school for practice. Got stuck in traffic. So we took backroads to save time. Made it to practice by 4:20. I was impressed by the progress made in 2 hours. Kickbacked with Jonathan, Raena, Adriel, and Aiza for a bit. Then took the boys home. Watched American Idol with mi madre. And now I'm gonna study for my jap test tomorrow!

Sayoonara. (=

GOOD DAY GONE BAD.

What started off to be a good day, didn't end so well -__-

Caught ride with Kassey today. Picked up Ea. On our way to school, Jessica kept saying that she didn't want to go to 1st period. Made it to the parking lot, parked for 3 minutes, then left to go eat breakfast. Decided to eat at Loco Moco. Ea had to spot me since I was low on cash. Thanks Ea! So like, Jessica bought orange juice that me, Ea, and Kassey found disgusting. So I say, "EW. Who drinks orange juice in the morning?!" Haha, apparently I don't. I guess cause I hate the taste of orange juice after brushing your teeth. Well who doesn't right?

So anyways, went back for 2nd. I swear, we did absolutely nothing today. So I redid all my index cards for japanese since I had nothing better to do ;P Meeetcho kept singing, "London Tipton's really great, really great.." Yeah, I don't know why? And then Ea starts singing it while dancing with her bottle. Not knowing that I took off the cap, she spills water all over her left side x] WHOOPS! Ended up just kicking back for the rest of the period. Lunch, nothing new. Did a worksheet for japanese then had a group activity. My group was being assholes to me, so I ended up being salty for half the period. Decided to participate with my group, and I swear I was on a roll til Sean pulled me out of class..@#$%^&*! Yeah, so not talking about it. Went to 4th period late cause yeah. Finised 3/4 of my last module. I take my final test tomorrow ;] Then half day for me. (=

After school, went to mommy's house to visit her and baby Khysten. Almost all of DUS10 girls were there, EXCEPT mommy J! Kickbacked, ate pizza, caught up on 'stuff'. Kinda? Around 4, we all left so mommy could have her study session. Dropped Meeetcho off to pick up KC then headed back to school for dance practice. We actually made progress today. Performance is in 1 1/2 week, can we do it? I think so! Ended practice early. Chilled with the underclassmen. Cleared the tension in the air with a certain someone. We're definitely on good terms. (= Dropped best friend off home, then stayed at yearbook til 6.

Hm, maybe today didn't end so bad afterall? BUT, it's just the beginning. We'll see how everything goes tomorrow, or the next day.

FAMILY FEUD.

Today was a good day. If you were one of those people who spent it with me, you should already know ;]

Made it to school with 5 minutes to spare. Got a text from Ea saying she wasn't going to 1st. So I called up RJay and told him he better come class ;P History wasn't so boring today AND I actually learned something. We had an interesting activity on Imperialism. Our group claimed China ;D Yearbook, oh boy. I think that was the best it's ever been. Since our group finished out photography assignment, we basically had a free period. So like, Meeetcho was telling us about how she seen some lady with long ass hair to her feet and how she wished she had hair like that. So I said, "If you had hair down to your feet, it'd ride up your ass when you took a shower. You'd like that tingling feeling wouldn't you?" HAHAHA ;P And then we were talking about some other random thing when Meeetcho blurted out, "I finally cut my toe nails!" KEYWORD: Finally. For the rest of period and all through lunch, we played Family Feud on Ea's laptop. Til it froze on us -__-

Jap was okay I guess. Everybody was in a sluggish mood. Basically went over characters and what's going to be our test for Thursday. Finished my 11th module in Novanet. And guess what? I have 1 more to go til I can finally take half day! Which is totally pointless, cause I'm only either gonna be in yearbook or japanese anyways =P Had practice afterschool after almost a week of cancelling it. Went to KFC with MB to buy me some famous bowl ;] I drove since she wanted to play scoops on her itouch. Practice was..OKAY? Kinda got irritated at one point, but whatever. I'm still debating whether or not I wanna do the performance. BUT, that's the last thing on my mind. I need more days like this, without the drama that is.

Oh and I'm gonna try to start posting my blogs when I actually write them. That way, I don't have like 963852741 zillion drafts!

BATTLESHIP.

I'm actually making it to 1st period on time. YAY ME! ;D Finished my rough draft. Even with RJay distracting me over my shoulder with his ghetto rap. Copied Paula Mae's online assignment worksheet, then walked around campus taking pictures with her and the Michelle's. Lunch, kickbacked with the usual people at the usual place. Played Battleship during 3rd, japanese style ;] Me, Mark, and Ronnie got into a marker fight ;P Finished yet another module in Novanet. I'm on a roll!

Afterschool, planned to visit mommy Coojah and baby Khysten. (= Stopped by Starbucks to meet up with Meeetcho, Gagada, and Kelly Ann. When we got to mommy's house, almost everybody was pretty much there cluttering baby's space. I swear, he's my favorite nephew of all ;D There was some drama rama happening outside, but I won't go into detail with that. If you were there, then you know. If not, then shut up and don't ask. Around 4, headed back to school for yearbook and stayed there til 6.

FIGHTING = SHORT LUNCH PERIOD.

Due to my tardy abuse, I actually attempted to make it to class on time. Worked on my essay. Me and Ea fought over the rest of MB's breakfast =P During lunch, she thinned out my hair. (= But due to the countless amount of fights, lunch was ended early -__- Learned new characters in jap. Passed yet another module, 3 more to go. After school went to Genki with the best friend. Then kickbacked at yearbook with MB, Sean, Esther, and Jeff til 6.

Today was pretty much chill. (=

TOOOOSAII.

So like, me and Ea walk in 5 seconds after the bell rings and guess what? It's counted as a fucking tardy! 4th one to be exact. Which means SATURDAY SCHOOL. That pretty much ruined my day. And what's even more bullshit is that we had school wide writing. Which I think it's completely POINTLESS. I still did it anyways so that my damn teacher would shut up. Finished in the first 5 minutes of yearbook. Pretty much just talked with the girls for the rest of the period. Lunch, yeah you should already know.

Watched a video during Japanese. I learned that one of the japanese traditions is bathing each other =P How kinky right? ;D After 3 attempts on my post test, I finally finished another module. I'm on a role ;] After school, best friend came over. We watched Mean Girls as he attempted to fix my computer -__- Didn't wanna wait for the stupid program to work so we left and headed to Genki. I swear I ate like everything. OH EW. Dropped him off home and made it home by 6.

Got ready and waited for KJay to pick me up. Yaddi yaddi yada, he asked me out, yaddi yaddi yada. Yep, that was pretty much the highlight of my day <3

Oh & I have yet to figure out what 'tooosaii' means >__<

FREE FOOD.

1st period was actually fun, or at least better than most days. I think it's cause we got free candy and talked about legalizing gay marriages ;P I quote, "We're eating free candy while smoking weed on 3 day weekends while wearing Nike's and getting gay marriages." - said by our teacher himself. HAHAHA ;D Worked on my new years project for jap during yearbook. Finished it by lunch ;] With the help of my favorite people in the world ;D

Ea stayed in our jap class since she was gonna be by herself in shaw's. Everybody kept saying for me to present next, but sensei went in alphabetical order by last name. I was last ;P After 3rd, went to Denny's with MB, Ea, Sean, Kelly, & Richrawrd. They were serving free food from 6AM-2PM, so why not right? It was delicious. (= Stopped by Starbucks on our way back to school to get our usual ;D So like, Ea was acting all high and shat, and Sean's all like, "Michelle, you're so out of it!" And Michelle's all like, "You're out of it!" Then Kelly joins in out of nowhere and says, "You're face is too in it!" HAHAHA ;D It was one of those, 'you had to be there' moments. Stayed back in yearbook after school, the usual.

10 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT YOU.

I woke up today thinking it was gonna be like any other day - go to school, go to dance practice, go home..SO NOT!

New routine today. MB picked me earlier than usual. Come to find out we had to get Sean. Stopped by Loco Moco on our way to school. JMVI called around 7:40 saying he was walking to school. I didn't want him to be late, so we picked him up. Our last stop was Esther Claire, go figure. Made it to school on time-ish? Our activity for US History was on drugs, sex, food, unfair teachers, etc. They asked personal questions! So me and Ea faked our answers ;] Mama Q was out again, so we had Coach B as our sub. I made an attempt to do my online assignment, I FAILED. Ended up eating cup of noodles and talking with the yearbook editors ;P

We were homeless during lunch ;( Thank god for sensei 0=] Have I mentioned by the way how greatful I am to have jap right after yearbook? I love the feeling of having to walk right next door. Anyways, back on subject. It was pretty much a free day. We celebrated our very own Oshougatsu ;D I had 3 rounds with the noodles! Sensei forced me to do my calligraphy -__- So I did. Continued working on a module which I'm almost done with. Practice after school turned out to be nothing but DRAMA. Not gonna go into details. Worked things out, yaddi yaddi ya.

The best thing about today was the 10 things I love about you ;]